This has been a most productive couple of weeks when it comes to reaping the results of what I put out there in my last manifestation session. The main thing I asked for was better grounding. I have made a conscious effort to ground and center myself and I have to say that it is an effort for me. I’m more of a fly by the seat of my pants person and that often ends up in being spacey or having half ass results. I’m reading the book CASTING SACRED SPACE right now. In it it explains the importance of this first step in every type of spiritual work we do. I bought some pre-made candles for grounding and stability from Coventry Creations that have boosted my efforts.
I also asked for some self esteem help. I need to make some steps forward to do something different and I’m very comfortable right now and have gotten a bit lazy. I’m at home most of the time and like it. lol! But I really need to spread my wings a bit, even if it means to put more effort into organizing some social events and such with like minded friends. It’s been interesting because most of my boosting from the universe has come in the form of a “remember you used to be THIS” or a “THIS uses to be YOU” situations that have been crossing my path. Most of these have been with past friends or acquaintances I have now. Everyone is in a different place for a reason and there is no right or wrong place in someone’s life. Mine is just where it is at and it doesn’t include abusive people or those that are using or taking advantage of me for a selfish reason. There are no active addicts in my circle of influence, nor am I compelled to rescue or help anyone out who can help themselves. I’m good at setting boundaries and feel good about being myself and enjoying my life. Much different than a few years ago.
The messages I have been sent have been from observing people who feel obligated to be “nice” or not hurt someone else but in turn sacrifice their own well being or happiness and waste their time and others being “nice”. I personally think that this is a rip off on all ends of the “nice” stick. Being honest is better. We get to move on, people start to heal sooner, and move onward on their journey as well as your own. Being nice is often selfish on our part because we don’t want to let go or change and you hold everyone in this situation hostage to dishonesty. I used to do that for all those subconscious reasons. Not so much now. Also comes the ladies who want a relationship so bad that they throw all reason and self-worth to the curb. I used to be that lady also but not any more.
Over coming negative ingrained patters that we’ve been taught through family dynamics, religious teachings , or poor judgement is difficult and takes a lot of time and effort on our part.
I give thanks to God and his angels and my guardians that watch over me and guide me in all I do. As with all spiritual work you get what you ask for and I did. They showed me where I was and where I am. They told me to give myself a big pat on the back and to give myself more credit. That’s my big flaw. I need to give myself more credit and a two thumbs up. Only then can we move forward. Only then can we gather the confidence to go to the next step in life we need to take. If we fail to accredit ourselves with our triumphs and down play our strengths for the sake of being modest or offending others, we are allowing outside influence and low self worth to determine our happiness and level of success both internally and externally.
So as I give my fabulous self a huge “You go girl!” and a cheesy two thumbs up, I take pride at my life, my being and my accomplishments up to this moment. I chose to step out of my cosy box and extend myself to those who need an ear, a friend, or just a goofy pal to do the upcoming Full Moon ritual with. Lol! I also am grateful for the trials I’ve been through because it makes me more of an em-path to those that need love, guidance, understanding and a kick in the ass along their path. lol! I’ve been blessed with deep understanding on many a subject and an intuitive outlook on things.
Now to get out the old note book and make a list of things to get rid of with the upcoming Full Moon. It’s a Blue Moon so I’m going to do some research on what this means and how I can utilize this special event into my letting go pow wow tomorrow night.