Issues of extreme abandonment, violent men, being buried and crushed, and not having enough time to do what I need to do have all surfaced in my past life sessions. Learning these things about myself has made sense to me. I feel more peace with my present lifetime and understand why things are the way they are.
I’ve recently been guided to exploring my past lives and they have enlightened me to why I have certain blocks I need to release. With the death of my best friend two years ago, this event has triggered and enlightened me to my past life karma and what my soul has chosen to do in this life time. Through this therapy I have uncovered several lifetimes that were cut short by violence, and some where I was violently victimized. Recognizing that I’ve chosen this life to “fast-track” has made perfect sense to why I am so driven to acquire knowledge to learn and evolve. Acknowledging and healing these past life wounds has begun to bring more inner peace and understanding to why my life is the way it is today and why I’ve had so many challenges. It’s also explained the weird dreams of being crushed as a child and why I don’t like being smothered.
Healing and cutting cords of the past is not easy. Feeling and reliving the fear and pain is sometimes excruciating and I don’t enjoy the process. I drag it out and put it off until I have no choice. With my next Reiki Level coming up, I know I need to get past this in order to move on with peace.
I did a Goddess Reading for myself today and this was the message:
As an old soul, you have knowledge that will help and inspire others. Don’t delay sharing this ancient wisdom with others. You carry this with you from your past life times to use in this one. Lighten up and have fun in this process and lifetime. Romance is the essence of the universe and you need to always bring it into your own life and also share this love with others. Never be to proud ask for help. You cannot do this on your own and it’s time to delegate again. It’s time to seek help and guidance to get to the next level you want to get to. Seek your guides and those you know who are healers on earth to help you. You are on the right track, keep on going. We are here to guide and strengthen you when you need it.
This was a very powerful message for me to hear and one I knew was coming. Always listen to your higher self and thank your guides for the love and guidance they show you.