Reiki is an amazing tool to get you to this place.
When I decided to leave my bad marriage and follow my intuition, it was scary. I had chosen a life in my twenties that no longer worked for me in my thirties. Throughout the years I became more confident, more in tune with what I truly represented as an individual, and not what I thought would make me happy.
When I was younger, I thought external. A husband and family would make me happy. Lots of nice things would make me happy. Being accepted and following the crowd would make me happy and give me a feeling of belonging. That’s the key word…MAKE.
We have been taught what makes us happy is what looks good, feels good, and what is accepted by our social circle. But HOW and WHO would you be if suddenly none of that mattered anymore? Who would you be without the childhood conditioning, the religious rules and dogma, or the trauma that some of us endure as children but stuff it down or feel shame and rejection when we try to share our story?
When I began my post-divorce journey, I went to a healing touch therapist as part of my transitional therapy. She peeled that layers back, one by one, so I could heal these issues and wounds so they didn’t subconsciously rule my life anymore. These were big issues. Attachment and letting go, abusive mother issues, self-esteem, awareness of my shadow self and acceptance. She cleared me of layers of energetic debris that I was bogged down and contaminated with. In my twenties I had done extensive inner child and cognitive therapy. This worked but I needed more. I needed to heal myself as a whole. My mind and my spirit. I was worth it.
As I peeled back these painful layers, I began feeling inner peace. Circumstances came up that helped me exercise my self worth and speak my new found truth. I found out who my true friends were. I made healthy relationship choices. I made choices that I wanted and not what I was subconsciously compelled to do, driven by my fear of abandonment and co-dependency. I am worth it.
Change is hard and it takes time, new knowledge, practice and support. When we chose to put yourself first no matter what, it might seem like we loose a lot at first. People won’t like it. One’s that are using or abusing you won’t like it, gossip buddies won’t like it, party buddies won’t like it, and friends and family that are superficial won’t like it. Also people who get their junk triggered by your personal growth won’t like it. Keep going. You are worth it.
The more you unveil your true self…whoever that may be…the more you will attract people and things that you are truly compatible with. You might have to experience a loss before you experience the gain. You are worth it.
I will tell you that it is worth it. To experience love and peace towards yourself and others is worth it. I put a high value on my quality of life and happiness. I put a high value on my legacy I want to leave my children. I put a high value on teaching my children to be authentic and successful. Being an example of survival, and success is priceless. You are worth it.