First of all, before I begin my rant on my “bad” situation, I’d like to open with a little ditty about gratitude and faith. Gratitude and faith are two of the most important things to practice. Throughout my journey here I have experienced lack, neglect, abandonment, and abuse. Not comfortable things to go through and definitely throws a negative spin on your viewpoint of the world and people.
One thing that I can definitely say that saved me was my faith that God would always take care of me no matter what, and being thankful for what I had, even if it was only the common sense to make a right decision that day. Even when I had nothing when I was on my own in my late teens, I still had clothing, a roof over my head, and food to eat, along with the courage to seek help to advance myself out of my situation.
Having gone through some bad crap in my life has given me the confidence to not fear any kind of lack that might come my way. I always know that my needs will be sustained and my happiness preserved, even if I’m not wearing designer clothes and eating out during the week. This type of inner security brings peace and a sense of stability no matter what. Even when things might seem hopeless and wrong, I know that I will still be “OK”.
Having an attitude of gratitude and faith saves me a lot of time worrying about my well-being, my job, my kids, and my future. Even if I lose my job, get sick, my house burns down, or we get blown away in a tornado, I will always have food, a roof (even if it’s a shelter), and clothing. And if I don’t it’ll be another test of personal strength and growth that I was meant to endure in this life in the physical world. It all works out. lol!
So here is my rant….
I have been privileged to have a high paying job as a health care worker. For what I do, I make more than anyone else does in the country of Canada. I am able to raise my children comfortably on a part time income. I was guided to go back to school and take this course and apply for this job right before my divorce. It has been a blessing and I’m very grateful for this provision.
The reality of it is, is it’s an extremely negative environment, on every level. There are a lot of unhappy people there who chose to complain and wallow in their misery and enjoy doing that. There are also a lot of hurtful and vengeful people there, along with many who just throw their dark energy around sloppily (and unconsciously) and affect everyone else in their direct vicinity. It’s a co-dependant environment with boundary issues and flip-floppy rules. It is also a place where people are sick and die on a regular basis. There is mental instability, abuse, anger, and entitlement. Whew! Along with that is the spiratic work and an unstable pay check.
OK so now that I’ve ranted, here’s the thing…and how I’ve turned it around with gratitude and faith.
Listening to my description there would cause anyone to scream “Why are you still there!?” I often think that and I’ll be honest, it’s the pay, and I also do work with many wonderful people who make me laugh and smile and make me feel blessed that they are in my life. As a person dedicated to personal growth, I regularly reflect on and evaluate my life and my choices, making sure that I’m where I’m supposed to be and evaluating my options and choices. If I don’t like something, I go about changing it. Sometimes things take some time so I’ve learned to be patient. I regularly set time aside to dedicate it to my path and personal growth. It’s all about me. Where I’m at, where I’ve been, and where I want to be.
For the past year and a half I have been unsatisfied with my present job and I want to do something else, but something that I enjoy and be successful at. Incorporating these wishes into my bi’weekly manifestation rituals that coincide with the moon cycles, I have seen tremendous results. I know that my guides and God are clearing my path and guiding me in the right direction.
Last week I was offered a job in a beautiful boutique that I frequent and has a beautiful owner and staff. I took it and love it. I am so very grateful that I was guided to go there that day (I felt compelled to stop in in my sweaty gym clothes. I didn’t want to but followed my gut anyway) and was given that offer. My time there is refreshing and positive and a great change of pace. It’s so much fun to dress people up and make them feel fabulous!
This is on top of my own Self-Propulsion business I began a few months ago, which is doing well for just starting up. I have so many reasons to feel blessed and provided for. And am reminded of this every time my regular shifts get cut and I start to panic and worry. Instead of wasting my time feeding into that negativity, I pro-actively do an extra goal setting meditation, or weave a success spell or ritual. Instead of stressing out about money, I thank God for the abundance I have and the riches that are coming to me.
Today I was very frustrated and I grabbed an Abundance candle trio, my goddess cards, and my favourite crystals. Right away I banished the frustration, saged myself and my sacred space, and went to work sending positive abundant energy to myself along with some distance reiki to pave my path and send positive vibes into the future.
Here is a picture of the space I created. I chose an Abundance Candle trio. “My life is filled with unlimited prosperity. I am released from the beliefs and attitudes that block me from my desired Abundance.” My smoky quartz is for grounding and stability and for clearing negative beliefs that stand in my way. Clearing my path for the new to enter. Citrine is the stone for abundance and wealth in every way. The cards that presented themselves were Guardian, Infinite Supply, and Easy does it. (from Doreen Virtues Goddess Oracle). This spread just reassured that me and my loved ones are always safe and protected and we are watched over by God and our guardian angels. To have faith that we will never go without and to balance receiving and giving to others. Everything always happens at the right time in our lives. This is where faith comes in. I have learned from experience that forcing my own hand doesn’t get the best results. To let things unfold as they are meant to brings greater success and fulfilling results. Oddly enough, this last card spoke directly about pursuing my own goals and gradually leaving my present career in time.
This is truly the key. Having faith and letting go to allow the universe to bring you what you need, at the perfect time, and gratitude for everything you receive(even the hard lessons), at the right time.
Always remember that even though we might not consciously know what we chose our path to be, or the lessons we need to learn in this lifetime to evolve our soul, always be reassured that on a higher level, we are always being guided and nudged in the right direction, and everything that happens is for growth and evolution of our soul.