Yesterday I went for a Healing Touch session with Roxanne. I left feeling like there was an elephant on my chest. As she coughed and choked through the session due to my throat blockage, I wasn’t at all surprised with what was clearing (or going to clear in the next few weeks). The energy of the last full moon was all about communication and speaking your truth. The spell soap I made carries the energy and essential oils for just that purpose.
As I plan and go through the many steps of the long process of opening my brick and mortar store, it triggers my junk. My fear, the doubt, the horrible self talk of defeat and what if?. I walk through it, brushing it off and replacing it with the positive messages of self confidence, focus and visions of success. But we all know that brushing off is only a band aid. The positive messages are a feel good fix. A necessary and important fix, while regaining positive focus and being in the moment. Not allowing the messages of the past interfere with the reality of the “now”.
Today my chest hurt, and I have a big lump in my throat. Thank god I have the day off to spend on myself. These days of quiet reflection are not only important to me, they are a necessity to my well being on every level. As I drew a bath, poured in too much sea salt, gathered my “balance” and “inner peace” candles, along with a bar of my new, amazing spell soap that I will be selling in my store, I was ready….bring it on!
As I relaxed and opened up to my guides and whatever else was supposed to come through, out it poured! Fear of rejection and failure, of course my family was there, from the past, telling me I was the “bad” one. I always stood out like a sore thumb because I guess I WAS the “bad one” lol! In reality not really, I could have been worse. lol! I talked to my long lost brother this morning which of course triggered sadness and anger towards my mother for ruining our relationship as siblings that we are presently trying to rebuild as awkward as that is.
As the cleansing tears streamed down my face, I felt better, my chest cleared (most of it), and I challenged the negative with the powerful positive. Because I’m strong, I’m not bad. Because people didn’t like my new boundaries, I’m not mean. Because I make my family uncomfortable with my strong personality doesn’t mean I’m wrong or a “sore thumb”.
These things that I have endured and experienced have given me the opportunity to overcome them. This has given me inner strength, wisdom, and insight to be happy NOW and to help and encourage others to do the same. It gives me the courage to keep doing the same and move forward with my purpose on my path. As with every choice we make, we can only please ourselves. You cannot please everyone, or make everyone happy. It is not your job.
As I release this old crap (yet again) from my heart and throat chakras or energy centres, I free myself of these chains, and make room for higher vibrational energy, thoughts, patterns and actions.
Shifting your consciousness takes conscious awareness, honesty with yourself, and effort. Always listen to your body, mind, and spirit, and take care of all of those needs as they come up.
After my wonderful bath, I pulled some cards from my beautiful Wisdom of the Hidden Realms Oracle. I love the art and basked in the beautiful faces smiling at me, and I knew I was going to be OK, even MORE than OK.
Today’s message is one of success and happiness. Of being true to myself no matter what, and celebrating my joy and success with others. Th middle card spoke of integrity and to always follow my truth and be true to myself. I will reap more dividends that I expected and to share this with others. Gaia reminds me of all the hard work I’ve done to get where I am. As she smiles at me with reassured confidence, I am proud of my choices, and what is coming to fruition is already here. I am here. The Sun Dancers remind me that everything that I put focus on will manifest in experience. I will draw to me the reality I envision, with ease, in divine timing.
What a fabulous and reassuring reading! As I know that I will always be OK, and that I am on the right path and focus, I sometimes need that pat on the back from my guides, and some guidance from my angels. Personal growth is often emotionally draining, but highly rewarding. Today is an amazing and blessed day!!